Thursday, June 19, 2008

little masochist

Most of the times I know, that you're bad for me. You'll always make me cry at the end, without warning or whatever.
Even when I'm at my lowest point, even when I told you I'm afraid that I'll never get up again, and even when I told you that you're my only hope, you never came. you never even care.
So why am I still doing the same thing over and over again. I hate myself for doing it.
When you left just like that, I always feel dysfunctional. That is not the way I'd like to feel about myself.
If you know who you are, then stay the hell away from me. you bring nothing but sadness, I should know better.
Now that I know, why am I haven't been able to let you go.
This is horrible....am I... a masochist?

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